It Must Be Nice

The real world isn't a tv show. It's a jolt to the naive; a harsh reality where only the realistically optimistic and determined can flourish.

Last year someone who means a great deal to me said, "oh, to be a college kid. it must be nice." I ignored the sting of that comment. I don't like being belittled. Honestly, I didn't really care or want to know what he meant by that.

Now I know. Now it's my turn to say that. I won't say it of course, but I'll think it.
It was nice, but now it's over and I have to face the fact that I am first and foremost an adult.

It's a sobering thought.

On my day off, I thought long and hard about everything.

Also on my mind: Family.
Our family is our foundation. Families come in all shapes and sizes and some aren't even blood related. I have 3. My parents, my sister, and my brothers/Katya.

The family I have been thinking about is the one that raised me. My grandmothers and my parents. My mom said that I was the brightest thing in Nana's life. Previously I remember one of my parents and/or nana saying I was the hope for the future.

That's a lot to live up to. It's hard to live up to.
I know I can and I'm sure I will though.

Thing brings me to my next though: One generation is gone.
Our parents are taking the place of our grand parents and we're taking the place of our parents. This isn't to say we're becoming them, but we're becoming the adult generation. It's time for us to find our places in the world.

We can't do it alone though. That's why we have family...and so the cycle continues. As I've said before, life continues and soon my generation will be getting married/finding life partners and eventually having children. Not everyone of course, but a good majority.

Life is never ending. Family continues as well.
On and on and on.

So where am I in this cycle?
I'm learning how to be an adult.
Every day I worry first about money and second about love.
Word of the year: Responsibility.

This may sound like an unhappy post, but it's not. I'm a little bitter, but I'm far more relieved not to be so naive anymore. It's simply a reality check.