Eternity

Life is weird.
It occurred to me today that everything that is physical ends, but some things are more profound than physicality. Some things like souls, love etc. I don't think love ends with death. I think it endures.

It's unfortunate that nana will soon be gone, but as someone important to me pointed out, she's going to a better place, and more importantly she'll be with her husband one again. One thing I've wondered is how you manage to live so many years without the one you love.
She told me it was very hard at first, but then she realized that "the lord would take me when he's good and ready and so I will live as best I can until that moment." She certainly has.

Today I cried quite a bit, not because I was sad, but because I was happy. It's more than happiness though...it's something that can't be described. It's because one man has changed my life. I don't even think he knows how important he is to me although I try to tell him.

He's the only one to have ever broken through all of my defenses. The only one who I can cry in front of without feeling vulnerable, because I know he will protect me. The only one who has never yelled at me or gotten mad at me. The only one who has never intentionally hurt me. I'm sure there are other onlys, but I don't need to list them all.

I wish everyone knew something so great.
I hope it doesn't end.
This is the first year I have everything I really want for Christmas.
I'm happy.