Broken Heart

I didn't know until recently that a friend could break your heart. She did though.

It's pretty obvious things are going to change when some people go to college and some don't. That doesn't have to cause a rift in a friendship. Friendships are relationship that have to be maintained. They don't just happen. Just like romantic relationships don't just come easily. They take work.

I did all I could and I went way beyond to make it work. Not just because I didn't want to lose a friend, but also because I didn't want to make it hard on our mutual friends. Then she pushed me too far. I thought I had an unlimited amount of patience, but she showed me differently. Eventually I realized that I had to do what was best for myself. It turns out that most of our mutual friends aren't her friends anymore for similar reasons. It should make me feel better, but I don't. I feel a twinge whenever something brings up a memory or I see an update from facebook. Honestly, our friendship was superficial. We were closest when one or both of us had guys in our lives. That's not saying much.

There is less stress for me in that area now. I'm not always worrying that she's upset with me for some illogical reason. Hopefully the twinge will fade eventually.