I Am Not A Robot, Really!

I just started writing a blog entry, but I thought it was a little too personal, so here is the alternate version.

• I feel Brent misjudged me and I'm angry about it.
• I feel guilty and nothing anyone says can change that, only I can make up for it.
• I'm back on the Luke train and nothing anyone says can change that, but if I start to sink I give everyone permission to yell at me about it or hit me with a frying pan.
• I won't sink again, because I've seen the light and I want that happiness I experienced before to happen with Luke. If it doesn't, then I won't stick around to drown again

I know I tend to be overly optimistic sometimes. I wouldn't have it any other way though. I wouldn't be where I am now without my optimism and hopes for the future.

So once again I put my faith in Luke, the one man I trust completely. He's made some mistakes and so have I. That's how you learn. We both own up to them. He's seen my neurotic, insecure side and...well he's still here. He's been the direct target of my anger, but he's still here.He's seen me cry more than once, and he's still here. He's the only man I let my guard down with almost completely.
By here I mean, he hasn't given up and said, "I've had enough of you, good bye" or "you're too emotionally distant, good bye" or just "good bye."

I'm not perfect. I'm cold and somewhat distant until I believe you really won't leave or hurt me, but I do warm up and I am an amazing woman.