Is There Somebody Who Still Believes In Love?

Is there somebody who still believes in love?
I know you’re out there
There’s got to be somebody
I search around the world
But I can’t seem to find
Somebody to love

I love this song. So catchy. But today I realized I actually do relate to it, which sucks. I can certainly understand why someone posted the lyrics. It must suck to be famous or semi famous in regard to that. I wouldn't want that. That's what I've been thinking for the past couple of weeks anyway. Today I had my realization though. How do you find something real when men don't look past your beauty. You want me to make myself ugly to find that? Fuck that. I do have a brain though (maybe it's prettier than yours too).

I wish for once a guy would appreciate me for all of me. I'm tired seeing guys stop and stare when I walk past everyday. Today I was walking up the stairs to my exam, when I saw a guy standing against the window on a phone. He was attractive, but I didn't really care. I only glanced at him, but apparently it was enough to make him forget he was talking on the phone. I continued on my way, only laughing when I reached the right floor. That kind of thing happens every day at least once. Do I get tired of it? No, but I want more.

What is it going to take? Are older guys the only one's capable of seeing past that? This is something completely new. A guy who is willing to make time for me if I say yes? 2 guys even. I don't have to schedule myself around a guy who might or might not have time for me just to see if he might want something more at some point that could be either soon or in awhile or never? There are guys who value and want my time? What is this?!
Somehow I have more questions than answers, but that's going to change. I need some stability and clarity.

Is that asking too much? I think not. Does it have to be a choice though? I want it all and I'm determined to get it.

(Note: This post is basically everything that has been running through my head today and this weekend, so if it seems like string of thought...it is.)

Also. WHERE THE HELL IS NATHAN GERBE?! He disappeared from earth or something.