Let It Rain

So many things are trying to keep me
And so many voices trying to reach me
To tell me that this is not the way
To tell me that this is my mistake

Oh, let the rain keep falling down
Cause it won't stop me
From getting where I'm bound
Maybe I'm crazy
Maybe it's too late
But I'm gonna make it
Don't care what the skies say
So oh, let it rain.

I was looking for songs involving rain today and I came across Let it Rain by Kris Allen. I own the album, but haven't listened to half of it. Finally listened to this song and now I can't stop. It makes me want to run out and dance in the rain. Unfortunately i'm sick and that would not be a good idea.

The best thing that happened this week was a short conversation with my brother. I hadn't talked to him since the party at USM right before he went back to college. I was afraid he caught onto my anger at his betrayal back then and was angry at me. Apparently he still has no clue. Luckily it's all in the past anyway. I miss Katya and him the most since they're the most like family.

It's kind of funny...sometimes I feel like we've switched places. This year he's had 2 girlfriends and I'm stuck in limbo. Last year it was the other way around. I had boyfriends though...I wouldn't change it back by any means. I'm far happier now than I was last year with either of those guys. They're friends, and that's all they were ever meant to be.

Being sick this time around has made me realize moreso than before how determined I am...about Everything. When I really want something, I almost always get it. I work hard. Sometimes I get frustrated and have to take a break, but then I get right back to it. For example, with this flu, I realized I need to rest for 3 days, so I am and by tomorrow I'll be ready to go go go. I'm no longer contagious, so that's a good sign.

I've had this weird tug or war going on inside me this week. One side, the flu side, has been dragging me down and making me sleep, the other side, full moon, has been trying to energize me. So I have been like "I can get up and do stuff!" and 2 hours later "shit....I need to get back in bed." My head is finally clear enough recognize that rising energy though. So it looks like I'll be good to go for the weekend, but I guess I won't be getting laid this full moon weekend...oops did I just write that?

Anyhoo...Tomorrow is supposed to be a crazy hockey day. USA vs. Finland (to which I respond fuckkkkk. Hope they can win...), then a Pirates game if I decide to go, then Canada vs. Slovakia (going for the Slovaks, but I doubt they'll win)...and I guess ladies long program somewhere inbetween.