What I Like About You

Henry:"With me it was Vince. With Ben it was Vince....Do you see a pattern?"

I love the show What I Like About You. I love Amanda Bynes. She's hilarious. The show is a comedic take on realistic situations, but there is more drama and always a happy ending.

The end of the show is the best part though. Holly stows away in Vince's car (he's driving down to Florida to be a bartender for the summer, because he thinks Holly is back with her ex, Henry and wants to get away) and rides down in the back, while Vince is in the front with a girl he picked up the day before. Basically she ends up sitting on a rock until he finds her. They decide to try again, so she returns to NY and he stays in Florida. He decides he misses her and returns to NY. The end.

Yes it's incredibly complicated. In fact, it reminds me of my own life in regard to men at least. Always complicated. Always dramatic. People say "it doesn't have to be that way" or "you can find someone better," but honestly I don't care about anyone "better" and I don't believe in soul mates. I know it doesn't have to be the way it is, but it's how I want it...or closer to how I want it than if I walked away.

I'm not the kind of woman who find it easy to commit to one guy. I get bored. I like to flirt. Then I figured out the pattern. I kept running away from guys, because it never felt right. I was never completely happy with them. There are people I can be happy with though. I know that now. I also know that it won't come easily. Nothing ever does. The hardest part is not quite having it and being afraid that it will be taken away before I really get a chance.

The quote, "to win you have to be willing to fail" comes to mind. It's true and it's difficult. Most days are struggle and I cry sometimes out of frustration and hurt, but it only lasts a short while before I am able to remember the good things and get the support from friends and family that I need. I used to think that it was my burden to bear and I couldn't share it with anyone else. Well it turns out there are people who care enough not to leave me alone with this. Luckily I can't stay sad and I know what I want, even if he doesn't.