So Much For Brief

It's been awhile. I have a lot to say, but now really isn't the moment seeing as I'm watching game five of the Pens-Sens series at Beans house. What I want to cover at some point is this past weekend, which involved many insights all connecting my early life with my current life and of course the Stanley Cup Playoffs - More specifically the game I went to with Hallie last night. Most amazing experience even if it was in Boston and they lost in double overtime. It's certainly not Ryan Miller's fault. I've been faultering a little with Luke lately. I came back from this weekend and something was different. I'm not sure what, but like I said not something I want to go into right now. Seems like I get questions about him everyday, so if I get snippy with you, I'm sorry. I just really don't want to discuss it unless I seem really sad or bring it up myself. Neither have happened this week.

Okay maybe I do want to discuss it some. I've let go some, not because my feelings are any less, but a small part of me is hoping that maybe he'll step up if I do (eternal optimist after all). I've grown really weary of feeling constantly hurt.

In other news I feel like I have my feet under me again. I know where I want my future to go (academically) and in other areas too. Today I had an exam, which I thought would be really hard and it wasn't. Not that it was easy. More like I understood the concepts enough to articulate them properly. Believe me, getting to that point was not easy. I'm on my way even though it will take me more than 4 years. It's not just about getting out in 4 years and doing well in that amount of time. I need to have a very nice transcript to get into graduate school and then to get my dream job. By nice I mean a double major in psychology and either sports medicine or athletic training (plus my minor in creative writing). Sport Psych? Bring it on.

I'm also kind of ready for a real relationship with a guy who I don't get sick of. That would be nice. It's definitely possible. After 5.5 years I might actually be ready. Crazy. As of now there has only really been Luke and well that would be better than fine with me, but there's a nice guy in one of my classes. Who knows. Life is nothing if not chaotic and ever changing. That's not necessarily a bad thing and some things do remain the same.

So this is my "brief" update. Beans should be back soon with Sam. Party! Can't wait to make a special surprise for someone with Hallie tomorrow and a movie. Then Saturday is Lori's art show and in the evening Emma and I are going to the cabin to take a break from men and get geeky with X-Files and maybe some anime. Sunday is a meeting to plan a fundamental RC class with some other RC friends. I'm hoping to get some of my friend involved, because it's a really good resource for anyone and everyone.