Ready Or Not

This past week has been pretty interesting I guess. I saw Luke a week ago and hung with him all day. That was the highlight of the 5 day week. Then I spent the weekend with Kat and that was awesome too. So much fun to just break away and go on a little road trip (Two young Peruvian women journey to Boston...). That would be the way a movie would start out.

Today was great. I was feeling good when I woke up. Right before my first class I started feeling insecure because I wasn't sure if Luke would call or not. Then I found out I got a great grade on my English exam. I almost fainted (really!). That's the hardest class I've ever taken. I was flying high for the rest of the afternoon. Then Luke informed me that he couldn't meet me for a very legitimate reason. I got work done and went to meet Emma for ice cream. That was enjoyable. I sat in the sun and she sat in the shade.

But what really made my day even more was seeing TJ at the mall. I went to have my hair done today (it looks great!) and as my hair stylist was putting the bleach in and wrapping it in tinfoil, I saw him walk into JC Penney's. I didn't have my phone, so I decided that if he walked about into the mall I would run to my phone and text him. My brain went something like this: Please please please come back!
And he did. So I ran to get my phone. A few minutes later I was moved to the dryer and he walked in. We talked and caught up on each other's lives since last year at Hofstra a little. We lived on the same floor last year and he lives in Windham. He's one of my favorite people. Before he left I said we should catch up sometime later and he agreed.

Then I guess I was smiling like an idiot because my hair stylist commented on it. She said "you're smiling pretty happily? how do you know him?" So I went into a short version of how I had a crush on him at Hofstra, but I ended up dating one of his roommates instead. She said "that's okay. it happens. My husband originally dated my best friend and I dated hers, but it ended up the way it was supposed to. I'm sure you have a chance too."

To which I was like, wait what? um hold on a second. I told her I did have a crush on him, but there was this other guy who I...like a lot lot more. I don't know what you would classify us as though. And more stuff that I probably shouldn't disclose to the public because what's said between you and your hair stylist, stays between you and your hair stylist. In some odd way TJ reminds me of Luke, but TJ is way nicer to me and would have plenty of time to hang out. I guess that's the difference between friends and whatever Luke and I are.

Also I've been pleasantly surprised by Luke within the last week. It is just me or is he making more of an effort and being a little less ambiguous? I've been in shock over little things he's said (in a good way). One thing is for sure, I will not spend this summer like last. I will not let myself drown in the gray area only to worry that he's sleeping around or doesn't really care.

Okay really tired. Brain is shutting down.


"Take your chance boy ready or not"