Serenity

I'm feeling very serene at the moment. I went to sleep around 4:30 AM and slept until 1:30 PM. I have not done much today other than walk outside, play with my puppy and watch Persuasion. It's been lovely.

Speaking of Jane Austen. I have now read 5 of the 6 novels and seen 5 of the 6 movies. Northanger Abbey is the last novel to read and then I will have completed the Jane Austen novels. To men, this might not mean much, but to most women it's almost a right of passage. How many women do you know who are well versed in literature and not in Jane Austen? I can assure you than I know very few who do not know both. Of course Jane Austen isn't for everyone.

There is a large amount of internalized sexism within the novels, but the romantic notions, optimism and happy endings appeal to me. After all, I am a firm believer in unconditional and lasting love, so long as the two people are compatible enough and understand that there will be challenges ahead. It brings a little reality into the notion of an ideal love.

I recently bought a new diary. I had not written in my last one since last summer. I felt it held too many depressing memories of Hofstra and opening it again would release something negative into my life now. Also after Luke saw it, I couldn't look at it without wondering what he saw and feeling uncomfortable about it. So that diary has been shelved next to my "High School/Portland Pirates" diary and my "Harlan" diary. I think I shall name it "The Dark Days" diary and I will not open it for a few years. I will wait for a time when I am further from my Hofstra experience.

Now I have a new one. I don't name them until I finish them, so I have no name for the new one. I do have a name I hope to call it though. I will probably have filled it by December and well...like I said, I have hopes.

Just keep holding on...