1,2,3

So it appears my luck with men sucks. At least the men I really like or love.
1 is emotionally distant/wants to go into the army
2 has a girlfriend, but likes me too
3 wants to go into the army also?

So I'm kind of frustrated.

Also I got a massage today and realized just how tense I am and how most of it is because of Luke. W-O-W! The massage therapist said afterward, "you're really tense." Yeahhhh. I need a deep tissue and a man who appreciates me/is available.

Today was really great! It was Kat and Micah's birthdays. We went for the massage in the morning, which was great. My muscles loosened up for about 10 minutes. Then we went out on the boat. That was fun! I was surprised when Josh offered me a hand to help me off the boat. Mostly because I'm used to only seeing that in Jane Austen novels. Their mom also asked me whether I thought a girl liked Josh and if he was attractive. That was awkward, because I used to have a crush on him and he is attractive. I avoided answering straight out though. Then we hung out with Kate. Had dinner and did presents and finished watching SYTYCD.

I also left my windows down and had to run out in the middle of the pouring rain to close them. I got drenched in about 3 seconds. I came in with the sexy wet puppy dog look. It was hilarious.

I have ended the night chatting with man #3 some. I don't know how well I want to get to know him though since it's complicated.

And as for man #2, I'm going to visit him soon. We're friends and that's all that really matters.