Salt

The movie was good. Not as good as Inception of course, but still very good. It was really weird though, because it was basically like my mind. They killed the man Salt loved and she killed them all. They say an eye for an eye will make the whole world blind. Well if you have nothing left who gives a damn?

Anyhoo good movie. Good walk on the blvd with Carol. I needed it. My brain cannot think about anything else except solving this...whatever it is...with Luke. I really can't handle any other stress right now. I really freaked out earlier in the evening before the walk. Might need another walk tomorrow evening too or I might just curl up in bed and cry for a very long time or maybe it will be good...I don't have a good feeling about lunch tomorrow though and I'm not sure if Luke picking me up is a good idea. Worst case scenario, I walk home from downtown Portland.

It could just be the 2 cups of coffee I had making me pessimistic. I'm terrified though. I've never been more scared of anything in my life except right before I dropped the letter off. I'm terrified to the point of shaking and crying...not at the moment, because of the caffeine, but earlier for sure.

Tomorrow...well tomorrow I will just be me. I don't think Luke realizes I've changed some over the summer. I'm stronger and I won't back down.

There may be some darkness in between, but I will see you all on the other side. I'll make it through one way or another even if I don't want to. Resillient til the end.