2010

Why hello there! I didn't get to greet you properly at midnight. Oh yes it was a crazy night. The total vomit count came to 5. 5 girls. None of them me. I was the one running back and forth making sure they got to the bathroom, holding their hair back, cleaning their faces off, cleaning the toilets, giving them water, etc. Yes it was lovely. That's okay though. Anything for a friend right? Well maybe.

So my goal for the night was basically not to realize that I'm single at midnight. I'm sure you can put two and two together...That was my goal before the evening started anyway. It changed pretty quickly.

You know how plans usually never go the way you want them to? Well that happened to me. I just wanted to talk, but I got really nervous and stuff...and that didn't happen. Then I still wanted to, but realized it probably wasn't a good idea then. I told Beans to talk to Luke and that went pretty well I think. Then Beans mentioned Kate.

I don't remember what he said, but the name set something off in me. I started to cry. Neither of them noticed at first. I went into another room when I realized I wouldn't be able to control it. I ended up sobbing in the bathroom. I guess I didn't realize how much the Kate thing really affected me. I feel a lot better and I cried in front of people (I guess that's a good thing in an odd sort of way).

This was not the end of the crying, but I think the next part was funny. It makes me laugh at least. About 5 minutes after Luke left (i think) Edith and Jared found me in the corner by the door crying. Then I started laughing. That almost always confuses people. Then I feel embarrassed and I do it more. Anyway, apparently I said "my boy left, but I think he kissed me so it's okay." Am I the only one who thinks that's hilarious? Maybe you had to be there. I think it's funny though.

So then the rest of my evening was spent taking care of other people. I'm tired today, but alright other than that. I feel light and rather happy. Not at all weighed down by the past.

This weekend I plan to relax, aside from taking care of my dog. There is going to be a Lord of the Rings marathon all weekend, so that sounds pretty nice. Feel free to join in.