I Can't Spell It Out For You

It would seem I went a day without posting anything. Odd.

Here's why: I did not go to sleep Thursday night. I spent the first half of the night taking care of someone's little brother. I'm sure most of you know how much fun it is to take care of a 6'0 guy who's weaving everywhere and basically a mess. Honestly, I didn't mind too much. That's what older siblings are for right? To help the younger ones especially when they fuck up? I think so. (I'll do another post on siblings later) Somehow I ended up being dragged by my ankles across the floor early in the evening, which was pretty fun actually and tipped back in a chair. Too bad he was to inebriated to catch me before I fell back. Ah well.

Then Hallie and I stayed up talking until 9 AM. I realized part way through that our conversations were going in a circle: From her guy situation, to mine, to family stuff and repeat. There was some random conversation in between. I realized that when I was literally born, Luke was being conceived and that he wasn't even born when I was adopted. Isn't that really weird? I think so.

Felt horrible Friday though and my day completely fell apart, but at least I have new tires now.

Anyway, what really inspired me to write this was a photo I saw of my brother dancing with his girlfriend. It's quite epic for an average college photo. You can't see him, but you can see her face. She has that look. The universal look that a woman gives a man when she absolutely adores him. It looks different on different people, but any woman will always recognize it.

Speaking of relationships - Thursday night freaked me out a little. The little brother I was taking care of got into a fight with his girlfriend and she ended up crying alone in his room. I do not want that to happen to me. There are some factors with them that don't apply to me, but still...They fight a lot. I know a little arguing is healthy. I just don't want to be in a relationship where the guy says hurtful things when he's drunk, likes another girl and doesn't know how to deal with it, and doesn't remember what he said the next morning. That's a pretty shitty place to be especially after being together for 4 years.

I don't have the same insecurities and I'd like to think I wouldn't be attracted to a guy like that. There are certainly other relationships that have lasted as long and not been so problematic.


Anyway, I get Luca in 3 hours. I'm kind of nervous and excited. No doubt, I'll have more to report later.