Howl

Tonight I tried to let Luca sleep in my room. Didn't work. He wanted to chew on everything, especially my bed. I have a feeling if I let him sleep in my bed with me, he wouldn't chew everything. My mom doesn't want him on furniture though. So I had to put him in his crate downstairs. He whined and even howled like a hound for about 10 minutes. It's so hard to leave him down there by himself in the dark. It made me cry.

Then I realized maybe it's really me who doesn't want to be left in the dark to sleep alone. When I was little I used to run into my parents room in the middle of the night and sleep between them. I did that practically every night. Then I would sleep in the bed from the beginning and my dad would carry me back to my bed after I'd gone to sleep. I was a terrible kicker back then. Sometimes I would even find myself with my head at the bottom of the bed and feet on the pillow in the morning. I was a bed hog. The last, for sure, has not changed. I guess it's a good thing I have a queen sized bed.

Speaking of howling (earlier on anyway), have you ever heard anyone howl? A person I mean. I have. Never heard a man, but women howl. It's pretty scary to hear that much grief in a woman's voice. That's what you hear when a woman loses family or a partner...unless she's the suffer in silence type. Repressing feelings is bad for you though. I wouldn't recommend it.

Anyway I watched 3 interesting movies today. The Jane Austin Book Club, Le Divorce, and Things You Can Tell Just by Looking at Her. The first two Kat and I watched while making dough and baking cookies. I'll go into the first in more depth after I've seen it again. It was really good though. Men reading Jane Austin? That's priceless. It turns out that I've seen Le Divorce before, but I couldn't remember much. Things You Can Tell Just by Looking at Her was interesting, but not for everyone. Very slow moving. It's about these women and how their lives are connected through the people they know and lovers they have.

One of the women in it did a tarot reading for another woman. She said the woman was going to meet a man. The second woman then preceeded to tell the tarot card reader that she had been having dreams and felt like change was coming. I only bring that up because I've had that feeling. I think it's good change too, but I'm still nervous. I don't know what it is, but I can tell someone is holding back. Someone has something to say to me. I don't know who. I don't know what, but I think it will happen before next year begins. I will hope for the best.