Please Don't Go, I'll Eat You Up, I Love You So

Indeed, I went to see Where The Wild Things Are with Hallie today. I thought it was amazing. Possibly the best movie I've seen all year. I can't really remember all the movies I've seen this year thoughh, so can't be sure. There is no way a child would really understand that movie. So many things that aren't said outright. Yes, it had sad moments, but it had really funny moments too. There was only one other person in the theater with us, so we were free to laugh loudly at the funny parts.

I knew going into it that my friend cried a little bit when she went to see it. She doesn't cry as much at movies as I do, so I figured I would. I teared up a few times, but I only really wanted to cry when Max said good bye. I waited until after the movie on the drive home to let it all out. There was a lot to let out. I had been feeling kind of down since yesterday and now I feel a lot better.

I guess that brings up the good-bye. In case some of you didn't know, I hate good-byes. Most of the time I find ways to get out of them or I'm really awkward. I wouldn't stay when my dog was put down because I didn't want to say good-bye or believe she was really leaving. I hated going back to college after spending a weekend at home last year and I would cry all the way to the NH border each time. I hated that I didn't get a chance to say good-bye to my cat when he died, but was relieved at the same time (I had a dance performance that night and my parents didn't tell me until I got home). So me + good-byes = No. Right now there's only one good-bye I'm worried about and that's what's been getting me down. I'm desperate to not let it happen. I think I've been hiding it pretty well.

Desperate? Yeah. I'd do anything to avoid it. You know when something is just out of grasp and you can finally touch it...go to grab it, and fall over without it. It's something like that. A little cliche, but I couldn't think of a better example. I'm grasping right now and hoping like hell I won't fall.

I think I'll end there. I had another part to add, but I'd rather not give too much away. It's possible I already have and I'm beginning to think I should just...