Morning Person

Who ever thought this could be? I always used to be grumpy in the morning. I never talked in the morning and if anyone tried to elicit intellectual conversation from me, I would glare and grunt in response. Very lady like I know. I guess making sure Luca doesn't pee in his bed is a good motivation. The problem is that I'm dead on my feet by 10 PM. That's our (Luca and my) bed time. With this medication he's on, New Years is going to be even more of a problem. I guess I'll have to wear him out pretty well in the afternoon? Then walk him after the game. Then I'm good to go until the morning. I think getting one of those turf things for peeing inside would be a good idea, but those are expensive....

Anyway! Yesterday I was looking through movies on itunes and I came across this group that look amazing. They're all about love and relationships, but they're not your typical chick flicks. They seem to be unique in an Away We Go and Waitress sort of way. I also finally bought Sin Nombre. It's an indie film that looks really good too.

There's a movie called The Jane Austin Book Club. It looks good, although I have always advised against comparing men or life to the characters and plots in her books. One must realize, they're just fantasies. I'm not saying I don't like them, of course I do. I'm a romantic afterall, but I'm rational too, which is why I don't get jealous or territorial. Okay well maybe occasionally, but I'm smart enough to know it's stupid and I should keep it to myself.

But back to the point, my favorite is Pride and Prejudice. I love the book, I love the Keira Knightly/Matthew Macfayden version, and I love the Colin Firth version. The simplest way to describe it is: They have a love/hate relationship; I kind of like you, but I must not admit it relationship; I have duties elsewhere, but I can't stop thinking about you relationship; Marry me, but you say no because you think I'm a jerk, but really I'm just a shy guy relationship; I subtly prove my love and ask you to marry me again and you say yes and we live happily ever after relationship.

Mr. Darcy is the essence of tall, dark and hansome. He's the man every woman wants. He's the one I'd advise you not to look for because he doesn't exist. He's shy, but covers this insecurity with arrogance (Okay that might be real enough). His family has a large amount of money. He dresses well. He's intellegent. He has the kind of brown eyes that you want to drown in when you look into them. He towers over you, so he can sweep you off your feet whenever he wants. He's very loyal to his best friends and would do anything for them. He's more romantic than me.

Like I said, doesn't exist. That's not a bad thing though. Wouldn't someone so perfect get annoying after awhile? I'd like to think so. Humans are flawed. That's okay. I'm afraid of aliens, clowns, abandonment. I'm a little vain sometimes and a little insecure even less frequently. I'm not sure if I'll ever get over my fears, but I won't let them stop me from going to sleep at night or making new friends or falling in love. My insecurities seem to be shrinking every year and compared to the majority of other women, they're basically unoticiable. My vanity? Well if you're attractive and smart shouldn't you know it? Call them flaws if you like. If you're reading this and you're my friend, then you seem to be looking past them. Just like I do for all of my friends.